It's been a tough week I cannot lie abut that, but it was not without it's positive points. I have a few people that visit me on a regular basis and one of them is Glenn's bishop from his childhood (Larry Smith)- what an amazing man! His words are so calming to me and I really look forward to his visits. This week he brought me a book and a CD to take a loo it. The book is "Faith Precedes the Miracle" by Spencer Kimball- it is an old book but I just love it so far. He also brought me a CD called "What's on the Other Side" by Brent Top. This had many insights that I just hadn't considered before. When Glenn was dying we spoke about what it would be like for him on the other side, but I think now I am so over wrought with grief all I can think about is his death. It makes me feel better to think of how happy and whole he must be after being sick for so very long.
I was in a meeting in the building where Glenn worked for quite awhile and many folks came to talk to me and say how much he was missed and loved. I was honored by this, it would have made him so happy. I felt ok and then all of the sudden open the floodgates! But I left the meeting and was able to gain my composure fairly quickly, I hate that worse than anything cause once the little snowball starts to roll, it quickly can become an avalanche!
I have been dealing with a lot of bitterness in my home lately with my boys, which I understand because I feel like I am pretty angry these days also. My brother in law Jeff shared a talk with me form the 2009 Conference by Elder Oaks called "Love and Law" it's excellent! Thanks again Jeffrey D for putting it all in perspective for me.:)